i planted a small fig tree in the garden bed of my yard three years ago.

2023-04-28 from my notes app

i desire to be in a constant state of flow.

sometimes it’s like a siren call. it keeps me awake at night, feverish. thoughts racing, with no clear output. i toss and turn possessed by an urge to make something out of nothing.

when i began professionally touring outside of what once was my local stomping grounds in brooklyn, i felt an obligation to cut together a highlight reel during this awkward time between christmas and the new year.

i thought that maybe if i devoured as much as i could in these feeds, eventually i would feel full.