i feel like this will be a long one.
i’m currently in my studio, noticing sporadic flurries through the window my dried up rosemary plant sits on. i just made myself a cup of coffee in the biggest mug i own - a polished black mug i bought at christmas tree shops in the holyoke, ma mall before moving to my first apartment in alphabet city. listening to ambient works by four tet and daniel avery (note to self: these men are allowed such a wide range and so are you).
i guess that brings me to where i’ve been creatively. a little over a month ago, i decided to stop working with my manager of four years. and although i’ve taken some meetings with new management, i’m kind of relishing in this moment. for the first time in a while, i don’t have a sounding board expressing how my ideas may or may not work on a commercial scale. i’m just living in the ideas. it feels more quiet - and this space devoid of noise is where most of my thoughts stockpile. since my last album released in 2021, it’s felt like i couldn’t find them (aside from a brief glimpse at them late last year that resulted in my music for stealing to EP). but the only reason that EP came to be is because i was in so much pain over a breakup that it felt like if i didn’t release something in that moment i would never recover. that EP was about more than making some “heist” music - it was about escaping something dark and confusing, and feeling like i was the one being stolen from.
i’m wrapping up a new EP this week. and i’m going to start working with some musicians who would like me to produce for them. i’m leaning into collaborations so much more, it gives me a sense of community that i’d been missing since i stopped doing my waxx.fm residency back in 2019.
and i think it’s time to start working on album #3.
AND an ambientkitty album, fuck it.
everyone keeps saying “just give it a year” for this to feel real. maybe i’ve been too fixated on a moving goal post to accept that it is currently very real. i’m typing up a blog post about my feelings at 10AM on a Thursday with no obligations outside of the tasks I’ve assigned for myself this week. it’s real!
i’m moving to a new apartment this month (still in philly, i love it here) and will be moving in with luzana. we’re both really excited about making it a creative space. i’m also very excited about having a yard for gardening in once winter ends. the new spot is a walk away from all the art museums and parks. leveling up in this whole creating an environment that facilitates play/expression thing.
today is my “admin” day where i catch up on a lot of things a manager might otherwise do. i’m actually really well equipped for this sort of thing, considering my former full-time job in post production supervision was a lot of these kinds of tasks. tomorrow is another music day - and i intend to finish this new EP.
i think you’ll all really like it. i’m proud of it and i’m ready to let go of it.
